the last 72 hours have brought a lot of change. i guess that's what happens when you don't sleep. you see, after laura and i broke up, i had to find another place to live. so i found one right away for the right place in a town i wanted to live in. the only problem is that the problems got switched around. when i was with her, i could sleep during the day but it was stressful when i was awake. now over here, my roomate has a cockatoo. the bird sqwawks all day until you pay attention to it, and then i get to sleep maybe 2 hours before it does it again. i tried to deal with it until i finally ended up screaming at the bird.
the next day i realized that the bird doesn't really know whether its day or night either. and i realized something. i have been up here 6 months, and i gave it a try. she is up here and is happy, and i need to go back to LA and give it a true honest try. the first time i wanted to do things on my own terms and didn't quite think i was ready so i went back to boston and owned my own film business, made a silent movie on film, worked professionally as a videographer, projectionist and film archivist. soon it became apparent that if i wanted to get more work i had to go back, just like i always said i would someday and nobody really believed me. but then i did, and while i had an interesting job, laura was not happy there. i moved up here with her to give it a try, do something i had always wanted to do (live in a rural area). it didn't work out with her, and i had just moved into a new place, and i was searching for a new job, had a standing job offer, and had an interview yesterday for the position i had applied for before i left LA 6 months ago.
i called and cancelled the interview, and gave my notice to both my jobs. who was i foolin'? building a cabin in the woods is a good idea, but right now, i have to go back to LA and think positively. i need to engage the world, not retreat from it. i needed this sabatical from my old life, from LA. i needed to clear my head, i got in touch with my spiritual needs, and the answer was right there.
i'm ready to roll up and gorilla pimp the mutha, quite frankly. this website is called the athenaverse for a reason. it all began with a group of film headz collaborating on getting a movie made based on a little script called "Athena" that I wrote in 1999. as it is in the science- fiction vein, my original conception of the creature named Athena involved trying to find enough of a budget to make the special effects that would be needed. in 2006, i can make the creature CGI and shoot it for a much lower cost.
the athenaverse is changing yet again, my friends, oh yes...